88. Laziness kills.

Had deleted the blog I made for you.

I not really sure what to post on there because we're not couple yet.

Sigh,let's see,if we become couple in the future,I'll make another blog again I think.

Because yes,as the previous post,I'm finding a home for our love ❤️

I'm eager to post all the little things about us but that's too much.

My last update was on 03102013 and now if I write about the things about us,I'll need to write for 30 days something.

Oh darn,I'll try to write it hahahahaha :B

87. 我想把我们的点滴记录起来

我在为我们的爱找一个家。如果某天，我们，变回你，我。我会把这个地址寄给你，给你一份我们爱过的证明，给你一份我们爱过的记亿 :)

并没有每天更新，聊了太多，都没办法将它一一记录起来。

只好不把 wechat 的信息删除，想看回还可以 seach chat history ;)

我们没有在一起，所以有些事我都不敢说和做。

Because I knew that I have no rights to care.

这句话我不懂华语要怎么说 哈哈哈

想要把每天聊过比较特别的东西记录起来，但却没能做到，因为懒。

以后想容易得找回来都难了 唉

不过我记得你 sent 我的那张有 caption 的照片我很开心哦 :D

我记得当时生气你，但过后就没生气你了。

我觉得我们的话很少 :O

你也说过 : I'm such a failure.  I'm so useless. I'm so timid. I don't even dare to take the first step.

我这辈子最讨厌就是这种男生 但我还是爱你啊 没办法

只能让时间解决我们的障碍咯

86. Every girl has that one boy they will never lose feelings for ❤️

As my best friends,you might know this post is for him -- LEEZHENZHUO ❤️

Awwwwwww,he's the love of my life I think :*

All of this time,these things that happened on me seems so unrealistic.

OMG,I can't believe that he likes me back!

So well,as long as he loves me,I won't leave :)

23092013,2345.
The day that you asked me that can I be your girlfriend :)
Obviously yes!!! I want to be your girl so badly.

As the days go by,we almost chat everyday.

Although we didn't chat a lot but at least we did have a little conversation with each others.

Well,I do know that you hate full stop so I'm trying to stop using it when I'm chatting with ya.

I was on cloud nine when I know that he did notice my tweets :3

27092013,2104.
You said : 爱你 :*
Awwwww,you just don't know I was as merry as lark :D

But that day,CheeChung told me that you were a player.

Well,I cried for you :(

But luckily,in the end,I found out that you're not.

You said that the best couple was : 无话不谈，互相相爱，了解对方

Although we didn't suffice the requests above but you said that we can bring up day by day :)

I learnt that your thoughts of me were I'm nice and kind.

Thanks to your friends.

They always told you that I'm quite a nice girl so you start notice me and even fall for me.

28092013,1126.
You sent me this.

I'm delight that you sent me this :*

I set this as our chat background :B hehe.

At the same day on 2039.

You called me to give you a kiss so you got motivation to study.

Teehee that's so sweet of you :*

You sent me this afterwards : *your body is fully charged please unplug the charger* my brain tells me

You are that funnyyyyyy XD

29092013,1730.

When I told you about that Jr2 thingy,you're like very angry.

I'm not sure whether I got it wrong but I can feel that you cared :O

1751.

You said you're going to study so I called you karyao.

You said that that's not enough for you but I didn't get it.

But in the end,I got it and give you a :*

Awwwwwww,you're that lovely. I just can't get my eyes off you. 

1851.

You're so fuck that you called me to accept him.

But after you had your dinner,we were like usual,didn't argue at all :)

Sometimes I'm so sick that you always late reply but never mind you got your reasons,I need to understand you :)

30092013,2117.

You sent me a photo of your. There's your peace finger sign and some parts of your chin.

That's so sweeeeeeeeet of you,I put that as my chat background because that's the first photo you sent me :*

02102013,2223.

You sent me fans sound again O.O

You asked me did I know why you always sent me that but I said I don't know. 

You said : because you're my lovely fans but no longer

I said : just your fans?

You said : I said no long to be my fanss. Soon to be my lover okay? ❤️

Awwwwwww,I'm like wtf I love youuuuuuuu :*

Teeheeeeeeee :D

03102013,2210.

You told me good night and 'love you to the moon and back' ❤️

You're just simply too sweeeeeeett for meeeeeee.

Oh gosh,you make me love you even moreeeeeeeee :*

Last but not least,

All the best on your papers ,all da best and my best wishes for you :*

iwillalwaysloveyouaslongasyoulovemetoo(: 

It may sound nauseating but I really just love you too much and want to express my feeling through words. 

85. Sorry to two guys :|

First of all,Brian chin. Hmmmm sorry.

Sorry that I lied,sorry that I still in love with him when I'm with you.

I think I had hurt you but seems like you recovered fast so no worries ;)

Luckily,we are still friends I think.

Thanks for your caring,letters and all these time accompany me.

All I can say was sorry and thank you :)

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Next,my dearest Xiang Jue.

I know no matter how many times I tell you that I'm sorry,it's still worthless.

Thanks for all these time.

I truly appreciate that your caring for me,give me all your time and love,honest with me,love me for who I am and always accommodate me.

And most important is,you forgive my lies.

I'm truly sorry that I always comparing you with zhenzhuo.

You might think I treat you like my dog,but really,I didn't.

All these time I tried my best to make myself fall for you.

But it was useless,there's still some parts of me can't let go of zhenzhuo.

I'm so disappointed that you didn't wait for me,I always know that I have no rights to make you wait.

But in the depth of my heart,I still wish that you can wait for me,I know I'm always that selfish.

But seriously,I'm glad that you leave.

It's because I'm so afraid that I might hurt you one more time.

In the nutshell,thanks for everything and sincerely sorry.

84. 寂寞是有了对象后才发生的。

Feeling lonely now.

Lifeless. FML.

Everyday at home. 

I didn't mean that can stay at home and watch one piece is not good enough, but sometimes I just need to go out have a walk and get some fresh air.

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Sometimes I feel like I have no friends. My only best friends is myself.

Aren't it silly?

Everyone has a best friend. But I just don't feel like I have one.

I should think positive but my Pisces sign keep let me think something negative.

Sometimes I feel like they don't need me. They have their own best friends. 

Then why should I here?

Well. Should skip this part now.

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About boyfriend.

Erm.. well, I am not eager to find one but let's see I'm already fifteen and everyone on this age get at least one boyfriend.

No one has a crush on me and so on about those love stuff.

But now, look at me, I'm like a idiot there still dreaming someday I can date someone I like.

Being silly again ;)

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About my family.

Well, I don't use to talk 'bout my family.

But I just can't take it anymore.

I could be insane now because of your attitude.

Dear mom, everything you have you will give it to your two dearest daughter.

But what about me?

I gain nothing.

No matter how hard I try or do something to make it perfect, you just don't get enough.

They can use smart phone, but me? I just get a laggy phone.

I know that sometimes I am awfully rude but I think you should know that I treat you the best.

But I think you won't get it until someday I leave.

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Dear someone, I want you to know that I still love you, but I'm done trying :)

Feel like confessing to you again. 

I know that there's 99% that you won't fall for me but there's still 1% to let me hold on.

Not really sure how to feel about it, something in the way you move, makes me feel like I can't live without you. It takes me all the way, I want you to stay.

I hope that someday you will fall for me.

I have love you for a long time, one year and nine months.

They said a crush only can last for maximum 4 months. If it extend, it's love :)

I'm starting wonder when I will really stop loving you.

How many times that I said I gave up, but still, I'm still into you.

It's always been you.

I hope you will understand that your love will be safe with me :)

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从未后悔过爱你 <3